Tuesday Weigh-in

Stayed the same this week. Boo.

Tuesday Weigh-In

Down three more pounds.... :)

Tuesday Weigh-In

Down 2 more pounds... :)

Tuesday Weigh-In

A few months ago, I had the notion that I could get myself back to a healthy weight on my own... Yeah... not so much.... You see, after William was born, I had about 35 pounds to shed, and I did it with WW. I looked good, maybe too good, since I promptly got preggo again. After Tom was born I had about 45 pounds to shed, but (HERE COME THE EXCUSES) when I was in chemo, I actually GAINED 30 pounds. They actually took me off the nausea meds because I was gaining weight so fast. If it was edible, I craved it. We're talking, like 30 pounds in 2 months, here.

Last week I'd finally had enough and I re-joined Weight Watchers and today was my first weekly weigh-in..... After a week of watching, recording and rationalizing..... I lost 6 and a half pounds! That's about the same weight as a two litre bottle of pop! Yay me! I even got a little sticker! I know it's only 6 pounds, but I'm over the moon right now. I have a long way to go, but not as long as last week!

Paintball & Pedicures

Last Friday, a group of us "surprised" one of our good friends, Brenda, with a paintball excursion to celebrate her hmmmmm-phhhhh-fortieth-hmmmmummm birthday. Brenda is one of the most generous and thoughtful people I know. I'm not sure if she actually has the ability to say 'no' to someone in need. She's either helping one of her kids with a school or sport, giving someone a ride somewhere, picking someone or something up for someone, organizing a party or an event, volunteering her time... you get the idea. She's a great friend and a wonderful mom.

Brenda wasn't feeling the best, but being the trooper that she is, geared up anyway.

Very gung-ho of me

A lot of us hadn't paintballed before, but after a very enlightening briefing session, we steeled ourselves and set out to conquer the battlefield.

Ok, I grew up with one younger sister in the city and went to an all-girl catholic school. Consequently (and  possibly stereotypically), I hadn't really ever played any kind of war games or anything with any kind of guns, or covert teams, or hand signals, etc, so I wasn't sure if I'd get that combat instinct, but when you start hearing the paintballs flying and you're running for cover, it definitely kicks in. It was a lot of fun, and a great workout. A few of us ended up with some very impressive bruises as souvenirs. By the time we had played all our games, had our lunch and turned in our gear, almost 5 hours had passed! What a great new adventure! I'm so glad I tried it.

Two days later, I had an appointment for a mani-pedi. It's important to note that my mother is an esthetician, and I STILL had to book an appointment! We have a family wedding on Friday and the only time she could fit me in was 5 days before, so I better be careful not to chip anything...

And THIS is what you get when you mix paintball and pampering...

My hanging basket is now an incubator

Ikea Movies

Seasons in Canada

Boo

I owe federal a total of $5600, booooooo

Tax Time

Holy crap, I've broken even on my Quebec income taxes!!!

This is a momentous occasion.

Rock Bottom - The Best Place for a Ladder

I started writing this from the bathtub, in the middle of a gallstone attack. The Oxy finally starting to kick in. So keeping the possible drug-induced slant this post might have in mind...

I am very grateful for everything in my life. From my blessings to my burdens. But despite my gratitude, I am also quite unhappy with a few aspects of myself. I have let my health spiral completely out of control. I am the heaviest I have ever been. I am chronically tired and I don't feel good about how I look. I fought so hard to get the chance to be here, had surgeries to get back the breast I lost, and I am throwing it all away. 

This is not me. I am not this person. 

I stay away from crowds because of my size. I am depriving myself of living life, the very thing I struggled so hard for. The thing I prayed for. The thing I was insanely lucky to get. I am so embarrassed and ashamed. 

So now that I am done whining about it, there's nothing left to do but change. Little things at first, this week, I am committing to drinking 8 glasses of water a day. And even though this will be the most embarrassing thing I've ever done, I am going to post my weight every Friday. Although no one reads this, it's a bit of accountability for me, and maybe what I need to keep myself in line. 

In 2005, I lost 35 pounds with Weight Watchers, it really worked for me at the time, but now I really want to make a permanent change to my life, something I'll be proud to teach my sons. 

I do have a plan for the coming months, every week I'll be adding a new element to my new lifestyle. Baby steps.

So BANG! We're off!

Week 0 - 29.04.2011

Wow, I knew it was bad, but this is scary. So according to Health Canada, my BMI is 36.2, which puts me in Obese Class 2, with a very high risk of developing health problems.

I can't bring myself to take a picture of my actual body... so here's my body, according to My Virtual Model, 

I actually own this exact swimsuit, in this exact color.

      I am mortified but also very motivated. 

Here's to Week 1!

Just a Thought

Wheeee

Skating & Sugar Bushing

Yesterday was the daycare's annual skating and sugar bush day. The weather was amazing! I remember when we took William to his last one and he could barely skate! What a tough day on the back! This year, Tom has been playing hockey since September, and could skate around like a pro. So much easier!

So proud that he was one of only a few kids who could skate easily

T and his buddy B

After skating their little bums off, we went on to the Sugar Bush. We had an amazing buffet, one of the dads even played accordion and guitar while the kids were all eating. Afterward, we all went outside to explore and eat taffee on the snow....hmmmmm.....

It makes me so sad to think that our time with the daycare is almost over. They've been so amazing with the  kids, and understanding with everything that's gone on over the last (almost) 4 years.

Is it Spring Yet?

Hello?

Ha!

From MAHG to NHL

Today was the last Saturday the boys had hockey for the season. I'm a little sad that it's over, but it will be nice to be able to sleep in on the weekend. 

Tom and Jim on the ice in Shawville

Speaking of hockey, a few weeks ago, we were invited to a Family Skate for the Ottawa Food Bank at Scotiabank Place. It was pretty awesome to see the kids on such big ice and in such a big arena. We all enjoyed the night.  

In the Visitor's dressing room

Skating on NHL ice

With Spartacat, the Senators mascot

After the kids were finished, the dads got a chance to play. They looked to be as excited as the kids were.

Jim's first time playing at Scotiabank place.

I Love my Kindle

So, I've always loved to read, and last year when I splurged and bought myself a Kindle, I was determined to "make it pay for itself". It has. I've read over 50 books in 9 months, and stuff I never would have glanced at before, too. I've read a ton of Canadian stuff as well as some biographies. Who knew Patrick Swayze was that interesting? My Kindle came with us to Cuba, the cottage, the bathtub and it lives on my nightstand. I love my Kindle!